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Monday 23 March 2015

BEING TAKEN FOR GRANTED OR SETTLING?

  • “Staying with someone who doesn’t appreciate you is like standing in quick sand, slowly sinking in sadness.” — Unknown
OK, that moment in the relationship has come. He knows I'm his. He knows I'll be there whenever. He calls less and less frequently. I tried to make him call, unsuccessfully. He just didn't. All day yesterday I waited for him to pick up the phone and text me. Just a small kiss. A simple "Hello!" Nothing. Nothing. About nothing. It's painful.
Today I waited until 10.00. Nothing. I texted him and he texted immediately back. I knew this relationship was not a common one. I knew from the very beginning, from his own words, that there were no promises, that there was nothing but the day we would go out. I know he works hard for the money, on weekends, on holidays, very late into the night. I know not because he tells me, but because people sitting in front of me demand his work to be done...today, please! My job is demanding and he knows it. But I miss him terribly. He told me on the very first day when he revealed everything to me: "I don't know what is going to happen, soon I'll be having loads of work and no time... I... you..."
So, why am I complaining? I guess I fell in love.
He called me, he texted me, he bought me chocolate, he was never cheap, he always wanted the best for me, for us. He tried to see me as often as possible. (Maybe he still does, only there is less time?) He was trying to secure me. Now he has. There were times I refused to go out because it was late. Now I wish he would ask, he would text, we would held conversations. But... he went to see me to the hospital, twice in the same day. (Should I have introduced him to my mother? Should I?)
On the other side he didn't plan anything with me to celebrate his birthday (maybe he is not into those celebrations as I am?)
Are we already settled? Should I move some pieces? Should I refuse to see him again some time? Is he playing? Is he losing interest? Is he really that busy and then that tired?
All I know is I am worried and sad.

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